"She
shimmered in time." Lana's poetic words describe her adopted
Vietnamese daughter, Heather, whose short life ended 24 years ago.
"I'm sorry we couldn't save her, but I'm so very glad we had the
opportunity to love her."
In 1973, after five years of marriage,
Lana and Byron faced up to the realization that they had little hope of
having children of their own. So they chose adoption. "We soon found out
how futile an American adoption would be and instead we decided to look
outside this country." They got in touch with Friends of Children of
Vietnam and began a long, tedious adoption process. "Page after page after
page of application papers, hours of home study and interminable
interviews—we thought it would never end. We were even fingerprinted.
Almost an entire year after we began the process, we finally received our
approval. Then we had to wait. Wait for our baby."
It was early 1975 and the tension in
Saigon was rising. The Viet Cong were closing in on the city. President
Ford announced that Operation Babylift would be set in motion using
American military transport aircraft. Other countries around the world
joined in the effort, and on April 3, 1975, the evacuation of Vietnamese
and Amerasian orphans began. On the second day of the airlift, a C5-A
cargo jet carrying 228 orphans crashed into a rice paddy 20 minutes into
its flight from Tan Son Nhut Air Base. Forty-nine adults and 78 orphans
died.
Lana, Byron and an entire community of
potential adoptee parents on Long Island were devastated. No one knew
whose children were on the plane, and fear showed on their weary faces as
they waited to hear the names of those who perished. "Without question, it
was one of the worst days of my life." Lana, still visibly upset, tells
the story of that day as she strokes Heather's face in one of the few
photographs she has of her child. "Thank God, Heather wasn't on that
downed plane."
From April 3 to April 19, 1975,
Operation Babylift flew more than 3,000 children to new homes in America,
Europe, Canada and Australia. Heather was one of these children. She left
Vietnam on April 11 and was twice hospitalized—for pneumonia,
malnutrition, anemia, scabies, salmonella and a cough—before reaching New
York on April 23. "Heather only stayed home with us until April 29, when
we had no choice but to take her to the hospital. We stayed there with her
day and night. I remember sitting at her bedside watching the television
report that the North Vietnamese were taking over Saigon." As the South
lost ground, so too did Heather. "I remember thinking, God didn't bring
her all this way here, so many thousands of miles, to have her die on us.
But she did." Heather struggled to hold on, but she was too ill. "Our tiny
miracle baby, Heather Constance, smiled at us twice before she died on May
17."
"The trauma of her death was such a
shock that it followed us forever. We were never the same again."
Heather's funeral was on May 20. "That night, in one of the darkest
moments of our lives, the phone rang. It was Friends of Children of
Vietnam. They had three more babies to place. They wanted us to take one.
Our minds raced. We had just buried our daughter—we couldn't go through it
again. We needed time for silence and tears. I said I'd call them back the
next day." Without barely a pause to grieve, Lana called the next day and
opened her heart to yet another life.
Evacuated when she was three months old,
Jennifer was the very last baby placed from Operation Baby lift. "She came
home on June 5, 1975, and was ours the minute we saw her, shaved head and
all. There was no sleeping her first nights home. We hovered over her day
and night, constantly checking to make sure she was alive." Jennifer
flourished and grew bright and confident. Piano, flute, soccer, gymnastics
and dance lessons filled her childhood. "Jenny is so gifted and talented.
And very much her own person. Her first sentence was, 'I do it!'"
Jennifer earned many achievements. She
won a good citizenship award, was named sportswoman of the year, and
graduated an honor student from high school. She graduated from Drew
University cum laude with a bachelor's in psychology and from
Columbia University with a master's
in
social work. She now works as a social worker with underprivileged,
low-income families. Jennifer's interest in her heritage has grown
stronger as she matured. She would like to visit Vietnam someday soon.
Lana and Byron did not want Jennifer to
grow up as an only child, so on December 11, 1979, Jason, an abandoned
child from an orphanage in Seoul, South Korea, became her new brother. He
graduated from Hofstra University and is presently working as a social
studies teacher. "We are so proud of both our children. Our lives have
been transformed by them. We are truly blessed."
Even so, each and every spring,
when the earth stirs, Lana remembers her lost child. "I loved her so
much—she was my baby. She was a gift to us all. Not a day goes by
that I don't think of her and talk to her. I am so thankful that she
died being loved. I wake early every morning from April 23 to May 17
and ponder what I will do in Heather's memory. It's as if I'm on a
mission, and for those 25 days that mark the anniversary of
Heather's life with us, I donate money and try to help increase
awareness of the tragedy of her death."
Heather is buried far from
Vietnam, near a bench, a lovely dogwood tree and a globe of the
world. Lying in the earth next to her is a young corporal. She died
in his country. He died in hers.